feels like hanging me up on the tree. die just like that. simple as ABC.
seriously, i can't stand this pain. like fuckin' serious shit.
i sat on my knees, and shouted loudly, why me ?!?!?!
i cried almost everyday, funckin' single day. i donno what to do with myself.
i'm so tired of pretending everything is fine.
my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away...
you see that ? that is just like me. like people don't have path in her life. jyeah.
i'm dead. my soul is dead. no one can help me. only me can help myself. but....
oh it's not easy as you think, people......
i sat alone at the track everytime i feel so down. and there is the place where i can be sooooo calm.
i wash away all my problems there. i cried. no one knows. rain or sunny day, i just don't care. i walk and sit there as long as i one it too. let people think i'm crazy, let people talk shit about me, but yeah... that's the only way to makes me feel good. i wrote something in my book then i cry, cry and cry. and i stop writing, i see the birds.... chipping and flying with their friends. then i remembered, i'm not alone.
i have Allah, i have my friends. my good friends :') family ? nahh~~ i have a family is it? :'/ hmm
i wipe my tears again and again. i can't go on like this, i have to be more stronger.
so then the next day, i have fun with my lovely friend, Farah Lyana :')
she makes me laugh like bursing my stomach out.
oh hell yeah, we had much fun that day, Alhamdulillah ♥
but... when i came back home, everything is gone.... i feels like "hello, alien is home" :')
i sat in my bedroom all day long, like usual haha isokay, i'm fine with that *sigh*
no daddy, no brother, no friends, no boyfriend and it sucks. really have no life at all.
what should i do ? study ? SPM is just around the corner, and i know that.
from now onwards, i need to start study. for my future. my baby twins :') insyaAllah.
be strong lalink, be strong. Assalamualaikum.
sincerely, Lalink ♥
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